Am I happy with my life? I ask myself this question from time to time, usually when I'm starting to feel like I'm not. Almost always my marriage is the first thing I think about and think about how blessed I am to be a part of it. Babe truly is my best friend and although I can't stand some of his quirks sometimes, nearly every day I feel like I've never loved him more.
As an extension of that, our family life has its ups and downs. I'd really like to have a baby, more than one actually and sometimes I feel this huge loss of something that's not there. Then there are times when I realize what will need to be sacrificed once we do start our family. Things that even with our best intentions we might have to pass on like vacations, spontaneous day trips, brew hopping, etc. Sacrifices I'm beyond willing to make but at the same time will miss.
Next comes thinking about work. I took this job with the hope that should we become pregnant my salary could hopefully be supplemented so I could be a stay at home mom. Two years and four months later and I'm feeling like a glorified paper pusher. Don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful for having a job and income, I just wish I enjoyed it more.
Mostly I'm very happy with the way things have turned out. I could get into all sorts of other subjects that shape my life and how I feel about them but I won't. I'd much rather dwell on what's important to me and the person I want to be.
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