Last night as we were getting ready for bed, Babe decided to put Guy Code on. Shortly after the intro, they began the first topic, "pregnancy scare". Without saying anything, he picked up the remote and changed the channel. It broke my heart. Times like that I realize my stoic husband has heartache just like me. That there is a loss in his life.
Later that day we talked a little bit about our IF. For the first time I truly realized that his fears are the same as mine. I'm terrified of being an awful mother unable to hold up to all the things I promise to do now. Like not being pregnant and having kids really is because it's meant to be. I hate that phrase. But I'm also scared of it and apparently so is he.
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